Following this post and this post I have a whole new attitude towards life.  And my new found feeling of something-or-otherness has left me with a new spring in my step.  I’m calling it something-or-other because I’m not entirely sure what else to call it.  Independence isn’t right.  Freedom isn’t right.  Worthiness isn’t right.  So I’m left with calling it either something-or-other or Freedendence. 

You see, my friends, the realization that I CAN and SHOULD do things for myself, by myself, has opened up a whole new world of possibilities.  I now have the knowledge that not only can I spoil myself a bit, I SHOULD spoil myself a bit.  And that’s huge. 

I got a mani/pedi yesterday with my sisters-in-law. It was pre-planned and it was awesome.  It was relaxing.  I was pampered.  I was feeling fresh and saucy.  My toes and fingers are Magnifico Mexico and let me tell you, it IS magnifico.  The knowledge that I was doing something, two somethings, for myself was empowering.  It even led to me feeling brave enough (without alcohol!) to stand up for myself when the usual Conservative-Fox News propaganda started spewing in my direction from my Father-in-law.  And let me tell you, I was the one spewing when all was said and done.  There was yelling, there were curse words, there was storming off.  All done by me and it was AWESOME. 

You see, normally I just smile and nod, or leave the room so as to avoid getting into an argument.  But yesterday?  Yesterday I couldn’t help myself.  Yesterday it all just bubbled over.  Yesterday I felt like there was no reason for me to keep my mouth shut any longer.  I have opinions.  I have a right to state them.  And state them I did.  Yesterday I RAWR’d. 

I’m suddenly fiesty.  And fiery.  And unfortunately for DJ, this newfound saucy attitude doesn’t translate to other areas.  (Hi dad!) 

So I spent today working on the Weekly Shout Out for AllMediocre, and I took my time.  And I visited blogs I haven’t been to in a long time, or even ever.  And I shouted-out and I didn’t feel guilty about it.  Because AllMediocre is my project.  It’s my something that is mine and that I have the ability to make awesome.  And BIGGER.  And BETTER.  And I’m going to. 

And you’re going to have to forgive me if my comments on your posts have dropped off.  Please don’t take it personally.  I still love you and adore you.  I still stop by and read, but AM is taking a lot of my internet time.  And it’s time I have to spend there if I’m going to make it what I think it should be.  And if you’re an AM’er please forgive my lack of comments on your blogs as well, but know that it’s (hopefully!) in your best interests!  I’m working on plugging you, on plugging AllMediocre.  Speaking of which, AllMediocre is on Kirtsy…get over there and give it the love it deserves!  I’m trying to figure out how the hell to get it on StumbleUpon, but that site is still beyond my comprehension…anyone?  Anyone? 

And now I’m going to go eat my Vanilla Frosty from Wendy’s.  Because I deserve that too! 

PS- Spell check doesn’t recognize “freedendence” as a word.  It is suggesting I change it to Rotundness (excuse me Wordpress, maybe it’s not a good idea to insult your users), Redundency (could probably work to describe me occassionally) or Fraternity’s (?). 

PPS- I realize that I used italics entirely too much today.  But you know what?  I don’t care.

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